My friend, Belema Don Pedro took to her website to share this thought-provoking piece about overcoming fear.
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I want to be successful and be able to provide for my family, I want to prove to myself that I am strong enough to chase my dreams and fulfil them. I have always pictured my dreams in my head and I have been preparing myself mentally, physically and spiritually. We all want to be successful but we have different ideas of what we want to be successful at but when it comes down to it, we all want to be able to provide for ourselves and families.
At the same time, I cannot constantly keep working and lose focus of other things around me. Most people start chasing their dreams and forget to live their lives in the process, I don’t want to be that kind of person. I have made a conscious decision that my strive for success will not stop me from enjoying the life that has been given to me and loving people in the process.
Sometimes things do not work out the way we have planned, I have grasped and accepted that idea. I remind myself of it every day and it helps me not to be hard on myself. I trust that I will be taken care of no matter what happens but I am still afraid of the unknown. I have been praying to finish school but now that the time has come it is unreal and I am scared beyond my mind of what is to come. I have no idea where to start from.
I don’t think I have ever been this scared and I cannot believe I am done with college, but I am coming to terms with it gradually. Now that I am done, the picture of what I have in my head seems like a fairytale. I know people say anything is possible and I believe that, but when reality strikes it is not easy to keep the faith.
I have plans that I know God is looking down at and laughing but it is human nature to make plans when we are not in control of anything. We always want to prove ourselves but I am learning to let go and let God.
To be successful you have to go through so many challenges but accepting the difficult times and knowing that it is not for you to fix is very hard to do. I know God will always see me through whatever situation I find myself in but I have also learned that when all else fails, I should not be ashamed and scared to go home.
Most people will be ashamed to go back home but if you don’t go home where else will you go to? your home is the one place you will find love and support but the thought of disappointing your parents and yourself is something that will keep ringing in your head. When i say home, it differs for everyone. I basically mean anywhere you can go to clear your mind and feel loved and be able to rest. I want to be successful but when I get to a place where I don’t see the way forward I pray for the strength and courage to go back home. It will not be an easy thing to do but I have to learn to do that.
Whatever I will be chasing is not all there is to life, there are other things I can do and most times chasing our dreams make us go blind to many other things. Don’t get me wrong, my going home does not mean I quit my dreams or my life it’s just my way of overcoming fear and also accepting that I am not in charge of my life. I just want to learn to pause for a while before I continue, it is very important to me to keep my head stable and not try to force things into existence.
I want to be able to realize and be truthful to myself that I need a break.
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